I’ve tried to ignore that nudge in my head to write this particular blog. But no matter what, I couldn’t shake that I needed or was suppose to share... A week ago at church our worship team sang a new song called Jireh. This song spoke to me in so many different ways. It was like God was speaking directly to me through the lyrics. Honestly, I could probably write a few blog posts about it. However. I want to stick to the most important message I got. It focuses on the word “enough.” Many of you already know, I am a single Momma raising my sweet Akiah Grace. She’s my world. Being her Mommy is a true blessing that I thank God for daily. Where are my fellow Moms at? Can we all agree that being a Mom can be tough? I am certain we have all questioned our selves along the motherhood journey. Let me get vulnerable and share about my recent experience: Being a single mom, I knew I would need help to settle in. So my mom was gracious enough to volunteer to stay with me for a few weeks after Akiah was born. However, that few weeks turned into a little over a month due to c-section recovery and a couple minor complications. It was time for her to go home and I was a hot mess. I couldn’t stop crying and couldn’t overcome some heavy self doubt. So, my Mom stayed. That means the few weeks turned into 2 months. (God bless my parents for loving me, giving me grace, supporting me, and making sacrifices for me.) I didn’t doubt that I could take care of Akiah and I wasn’t scared to be alone. The enemy was trying hard to manipulate me in a different way. He was telling me I wasn’t good enough. He was trying to convince me she needed more than me. He was spewing all these lies over me and my life. “You can’t do it.” “You will fail.” “You weren’t good enough for him to stay, so why do you think you are good enough to be a single mom.” “She needs more than you.” “She needs two people.” “You aren’t worthy.” I cried. I prayed. I tried hard to push the lies out of my mind. But I was feeling defeated. I vented to my Mom and grandma and they reassured me, but still self-doubt was in my mind. How could little me, just me, be enough for this amazing baby girl? Sunday at church God spoke to me clearer than ever before. He knew I needed to hear this message loud and clear. As the band sang these words over and over, tears welled in my eyes.
“You are Jireh, You are enough Jireh, You are enough And I will be content in every circumstance You are Jireh, You are enough Forever enough Always enough More than enough Forever enough Always enough More than enough” While worshiping God spoke to me and said: I am enough, so you are enough. I created you, so you are enough. I hand picked you to be her mother, so you are enough. You are my child, you are loved, you are chosen, so you are enough. I will always provide, so you are enough. The tears ran down my face, God was showing up for me once again. By the end of the song, all anxieties, self-doubts, and fears were gone. My God had reassured me that I was created with purpose and he was the author of my story. He reminded me that because of him I am enough.
“...perhaps you were made for such a time as this.” - Esther 4:14
If you are reading this, stop and hear these 3 words YOU ARE ENOUGH. Don’t let self doubt, the world, people, the enemy, or any circumstance tell you that you aren’t good enough. You are loved and you are chosen by Jesus Christ. You aren't "just you" you are a Child of God. Don't limit yourself when we serve a God who is limitless!
With Love, T Dear God, I pray for the individual reading this, God give them the strength to stand strong knowing they are enough. In this valley they face, I pray they see the storm and know you won’t let them drown. When the enemy spits lies and doubts, God show up in their life in a BIG way. Whatever circumstance they are facing, guide them and speak to them. Give them the courage to not to second guess themselves. God with you all things are possible, I surrender it all to you. Jesus you are faithful. Thank you for being more than enough. Thank you for loving me endlessly without condition. I pray whoever is reading this truly feels and absorbs your endless love and grace. Amen
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